A Map of Myself

Hospital Elevators

2006-05-14T16:05:34Z

I am confused
by the elevators

They are looming and
cold, briskly demanding
that I know
whether I'm going
up or down and
which floor I'm going to
while I'm barely managing
to know where I
currently am

I want to tell the
elevators to have mercy,
slow down
loosen your metal
unforgiving teeth

Soften your voice,
your mechanical, heartless
bloodless demands

Understand that
I am alone,
almost all your passengers are
alone

and some of us
are weeping

Titan's Venus

2006-05-14T16:02:02Z

Plump, round
with perfect, pert boobs
and delicate fingers

slowly, slowly reaching
for her special flower
her clit

A courtesan, was she as erotic
as this? And as consciously so?

Am I heavier than her? Thinner?
I can't actually tell and
I don't know which I'd want:
perhaps to be
just as she is

only with birth control pills
flushing toilets
pre-packaged sanitary pads
and
only one lover, my own.

Egyptian Dream

2006-05-14T15:57:06Z

I have this
great dream:

I have arrived in Egypt
effortlessly.
I am barefoot, toes in
soft, clean sand
(this is long ago)

I am safe, and just
the right size
Humbled but not
dwarfed by
the pyramids.

And with my feet in
the sand
the sun
over my shoulder

I am taking pictures
of the sky behind
the pyramids
a nearly impossible color
only existing in
this one dream

And no one
before now or after now
will take
pictures like these.

Friends Only

2004-08-20T17:45:31Z

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